Wednesday, December 31, 2025

GOOD RIDANCE TO 2025! This is the LAST day of a very long year!

Summary of 2025- what a pissy year! 

First, I must apologize to all my followers and people who have commented in the past.  I just realized I had dozens of comments waiting for my approval.  I am going through them now.  I am so sorry I never noticed sooner.  Now...

I woke this morning feeling motivated to write but by the time I sat down to do so, I had lost my train of thought.  At 81, that seems to happen more frequently.  I have lost not only that, but motivation and muscle strength.  It is no wonder people give up and die.  When you look back on what has been and what you wish had been, and what may be and what you wish would be… it can be depressing as hell.  But why pretend it is not so? What is the point?  My very long Bucket List seems somehow to have shortened itself to two items: Get the biography/autobiography done.  Get the Genealogy preserved and shipped off to archives.  Is that all there is?  What happened to being the grandma to my grandchildren, like the Grandma I had?  What happened to growing old with David Swankie and sharing our collective of a dozen or so grandkids?  Is this all there is????  I guess so!

“To the people in my life who support me, make me smile and bring me joy, I am thankful for you.”  (stolen from internet-The Cinchy Cowgirl) 

On this last day of 2025, I am taking a deep breath and trying to continue to believe in myself, with grace.  Maybe I am stronger than I think?  Maybe the best chapters of my story are still waiting to be written… I know the older chapters are still waiting to be written.  My “biographer” (my nephew Chris S. Beaty) and I are all the way up to 1973, with only six more decades to go!   Turning 82 in 2026, I keep wondering if there is enough time left to accomplish that ONE single item on my Bucket List!  Revised Bucket List on 12/31/2025 - Modified Bucket List : Rent kayak in Baja and on California Coast and other places, Make jewelry in Quartzsite, Ride horse on a beach, work on a Habitat for Humanity project, Visit Tuscany, Italy, Buy land, go watch wild horses and paint them, COMPLETE GENEALOGY.

Check out Chris' first book - http://www.csbeaty.com/loser  .

In the past I have made the mistake of being so understanding and forgiving that I overlooked the fact that I was being disrespected… until I reached a point I could no longer… and I walked away.  I walked out of the lives of the people I loved the most, because it hurt too much to stay.  Maybe, I deserved to be disrespected?  I am not sure I will ever know the answer to that question.  I do know for some reason, at 81, I seem younger, more vital, more agile, than others my age AND I have outlived many folk younger.  Genetics?  I have nine living half-siblings, ranging in age from 9-21 years younger than me.  They should all outlive me.  But I can pretty well still keep up with even the youngest ones.  This past summer, I kayaked a lake in Utah with one of them, 14 years younger than me… and I had no trouble holding my own, except the part of manhandling my kayak back to my truck.  He had to give me a hand with that.


The kayaking is the major change in my Bucket List. Since having bilateral “reverse” total shoulder replacements, I have gradually lost muscle mass… and those surgeries do limit the amount and type of lifting you do.  There is no way I want to risk damaging those prosthetics.  I have almost full range of motion now and have few limitations, only as regards “lifting.”  And that 53lb boat seems to weigh much much more now, than it did when I got it in 2009.  It is time to set that aside, a fact that would have been heartbreaking before this moment, but I am at peace with it now, especially since my nephew/biographer, Chris Beaty, wants to “keep it in the family – because it was in the movie Nomadland.”  He offered to buy it, but I am happy to gift it to him and honored that he wants it!  I am humbled and even more honored that I can share it with his 3 lovely children!  I hope they will all have many more adventures with my kayak, that has been on water in all the lower 48 states, plus been in an Oscar-winning movie (the swallows scene in Nomadland - my video footage by the way!).

So, in spite of the pissiness of 2025… there is that to look forward to in 2026… going to Nebraska to deliver the kayak to Chris, attending Beaty family gathering, getting to know my lovely great nieces and nephew, getting reacquainted with my half-siblings and all their kids and meeting some new in-laws… and who knows what after that! 

I have no plans beyond that gathering… except to continue working with Chris to complete the biography.  Hopefully, we can wrap it up in 2026.  Then, I will move on to my last task in this life… securing and archiving my 6 decades of genealogical research.  Then I am done.

Being DONE is not a bad thing.  It does not make me sad, or happy, or afraid.  I guess I don’t believe in an “after” only a “now!”  I will strive to make the best of my NOW til I am done!  And don’t any of you be sad when that day comes.  Be happy with your NOW!

What is remembered, lives! (Fern (aka Frances McDormand) in Nomadland)

Next post - Utah 2025!

Tuesday, January 21, 2025

SWANKIE'S BACK - Returning to the Wilderness

 They offered me diamonds on loan at Oscars, but I chose to honor my friend,
 Judy Crawford and wear the lovely hummingbird she made for me. 

My apologies for my absence. 2022 was a difficult year and 2023 not much better. Had my second shoulder replacement surgery. Just prior to that I assisted my "last best friend forever" move back into a sticks and bricks as he, with declining health, was no longer able to boondock alone.  I over-did it myself in breaking camp and helping him move and ended up on crutches due to hip pain. Then I had a long drive from AZ to CO (where my doctors and surgeons were located) and had to get past that big fire in New Mexico, the Hermits Peak and Calf Canyon Fires.

But finally got my surgery and while in recovery, I learned the camper trailer I was interested in was for sale, so I bought over the phone, with the understanding I could not take delivery until surgeon released me and I was able to drive again. The day came and I returned to AZ to get it... during a very very hot spell. While transferring things over from the old van, a task I had to pace myself on as I was still under lifting restrictions on the shoulder, I got Covid, Shingles and Vertigo. Eventually, I got moved in, gave my cargo trailer to HOWA and sold my old van and bought a truck. I felt I needed a 1Ton truck instead of the small cargo van. A few other health issues and tweaking of the trailer kept me grounded at my son's until Sept. 2024. At last, I was able to return to the wild, where I belong. I'll catch you up a little.

Earlier post from May 2024. 

Once upon a time, long ago and far away, I thought I could not live without my husband, my children, or my grandchildren. I felt surely I would loose my mind. Then I decided I needed a goal/a dream bigger than life itself. I began a bucket list and put the wildest things on it, things that seemed impossible, hoping something would light my fire and motivate me to "go on living," a promise I made to my last-forever-husband, David Swankie, on his death bed! (He meant, to date and marry again, but once you have had the best, why bother with the rest?)

Finally, I started on the Bucket List, got a kayak (2009) and learned to paddle. Then I asked myself... now what? From somewhere, a voice said... "Kayak America" (you can Google that and probably find something). And so I did... took 5 years, finishing with Hawaii as my 50th state in my 70th Birthday (2014). Inadvertently, because of that... and camping full time all those years, movie producers/actors (Peter Spears/Francis McDormand) learned about me and recruited me for the movie Nomadland (ha ha, becoming an actor was NOT on my Bucket list) and I ended up on the Red Carpet at the Oscars in Hollywood in 2021. Nomadland won 3 Oscars, Best Film, Best Director, and Best Actress. 

All true, I never could have dreamed up a scenario that crazy. Still pinching myself.

Now, after almost two years off the road, I am back out in the wild and hope to re-kayak the Western States and camp and travel the rest of my life, or until I can no longer drive, whichever comes first!

Dream big, find a goal or purpose bigger than life itself!

Last thought, a friend of mine who was considered for Nomadland, but turned down because producers felt she was too fragile... she was wheelchair bound in 2018, has since lost 100 pounds by 2024, is walking and jogging outside daily now and just bought a 2nd hand van to build out herself as a camper. She plans to buy a teardrop trailer for her adult handicapped son to use as "home" while she uses the van as her space... and they will hit the road when it is done, hopefully by 2025-26 winter AZ camping season. I would have thought that was impossible too. But she did it!

Dream Big! Go for it! And to all of you who have helped me along the way... your responses remind me of how many others have been a part of this journey! I kayaked with some, camped with others, hiked with a few. All of you matter! I love you all!

More stories to come. What was it like to be at the Oscars and be treated like a star? How did I feel after having my van broken into in Hollywood, in a "secure" parking lot, the night before the Oscars? What does it feel like to be in my 81st year with four bionic joints, 2 fake shoulders, 2 fake knees?? I will tell you all about it.

NEVER GIVE UP!
 

Thursday, October 8, 2020

Swankie is back in the house...

Hello Friends,

 I began this blog over 10 years ago.  Somehow last year... I got locked out of it... and with everything that was going on, I just could not find a way to get back in to edit or post new material.  Today, Oct 8 2020... I did it... I managed to gain access once again.

I have just gone through and deleted all the SPAM comments.  Now, there are some missing photo on some post.  Need to fix that.

Will be creating a new HOME page that will be like an outline to the entire blog.  And I have a new domain name I will be attaching to it once the updates and corrections are made.

Please forgive me for my absence.  Ten plus years... lots can happen.  Unexpected things can happen... things you never had on your bucket list.  Along with Covid, 2020 has surprised me in ways that are nothing short of astrounding... I became an Actress... and am even being put up for an Oscar for Best Supporting Actress to Frances McDormand????   WHAT???   Well, I can tell you that was never on my Bucket List.  The day I met her on set, to begin filming with her the next day, was the first day I even knew her name.  Having been on the road for  a decade... I wasn't seeing a lot of movies and didn't know any of her's.   I never saw any of her movies until after we wrapped filming Nomadland.

Since I began this blog I have lost track of some folk, a few have even passed away.  But some are still in touch and in fact many of my nomad friends are in the movie with me.  Linda May and Bob Wells and I were the main supporting non-actor actors in the movie.  It will be out in a limited release on Dec 4, 2020.


Teaser Trailer... new longer trailer will be out soon.

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=dVP7PNRx8Mw

Now that I am back in my blog, I will try to do a better job of keeping you all updated.

Swankie

P.S.  Please note that my new domain name will be Swankie.actor.... well, why not??  LOL

Saturday, February 16, 2019

Man you oughta see her fly…

One of my all time favorite songs is “A Broken Wing” by Martina McBride.  It speaks to my heart and soul.  Early this morning it came to me that it seemed everyone in my life had been trying to break my spirit down, everyone but my beloved Grandmother, Olive Carlton and my one true love, David Swankie.  They were the only ones who believed I could fly and encouraged me to do so.  And they were right, I am flying now.  Here are all the lyrics… and I will insert thoughts about my life.

She loved him like he was
The last man on Earth
Gave him everything she ever had
He'd break her spirit down
Then come lovin' up on her
Give a little then take it back

Yes, everyone (you define everyone) seemed to let me take a step forward but then push me back two steps.  As a child, I always wanted to become a veterinarian but was told… “We don’t have money for college… learn to type, you can always get a job.”  I was told, “you can’t wear horizontal strips… it makes you look fatter.”  I was told “You can’t buy that white suit… it makes you look like an ice cream vendor.” The verbal abuse just never ended… and as a child and a teenager, I cried myself to sleep most nights.  I cried for my absent father because surely life with him would be better.  I felt suicidal… but could not tell anyone.  I was not even allowed to take an aspirin for a headache and I suffered from migraines from a very early age.  At 15, I walked into a doctors office right off the street, a doctor I didn’t know… and begged for help as the migraine made me feel like I was loosing my mind.  Within my family, there was no help to be found… we were “Christian Scientists.”

She'd tell him 'bout her dreams
He'd just shoot 'em down
Lord he loved to make her cry
You're crazy for believin'
You'll ever leave the ground
He said only angels know how to fly

Yes, they made me feel like I would never leave the ground. As soon as I got out of high school… I was off to the Dakotas to find my absent father… because surely he would love me and let me fly.  But once there, an in-law of his said… “Why don’t you go back where you belong, you are causing trouble here.”  Go back where I belonged… where was that?  I felt that surely I had been switched at birth.  It never felt like I belonged anywhere, except at my Grandmother’s kitchen table… and she had her own family and her own life… I could not be a burden to her.  So, broken-hearted once again, I left… keeping my eye over the sky.  There must be a place for me… surely someone would love me.

And with a broken wing
She still sings
She keeps an eye over the sky
With a broken wing
She carries her dreams
Man you oughta see her fly

Dreams???  What dreams could I have?  No money for college, no family support, no skills or training.  I can’t even remember how, but I got a job (working for Layne Bryant as an inventory clerk) and began night school. I believed getting an education would turn things around for me.  I rented a room near my school.  I met a man in night school… and a few months later we were married in my Grandmother’s living room… cost $25 for the preacher, a sheet cake, my high school prom dress. Two years later, his job took us away from my hometown… we had our first child and began to travel the world… I was finally flying.  From Indiana to Florida, to Europe, to Iran (where our second child was born), to the American West, to West Africa… I was flying.

One Sunday morning
She didn't go to church
He wondered why she didn't leave
He went up to the bedroom
Found a note by the window
With the curtains blowin' in the breeze

But something went wrong with my marriage and we broke up, and I crashed to the ground.  Now I was uneducated, no skills, no training, no job… and the single mother of two little boys.  I had a broken wing, my spirit felt crushed. Suicidal thoughts returned but I could not bear to leave my sons with such an image… so I kept flapping my wings.

And with a broken wing
She still sings
She keeps an eye over the sky
With a broken wing
She carries her dreams
Man you oughta see her fly

I kept flapping wings, and singing and dreaming… I guess it was a bad time for my sons… they don’t have good memories of their childhood.  But I kept going to college, got degrees… and somehow in the meantime… they grew up and left home.  By the time I earned my master’s degree, they were married and off on their own.  How did all that happen?  Where did all the flowers go???  Where had my little boys gone?  Suddenly, I was a Grandma… but not the kind I wanted to be… not the kind my Grandma was to me.  It felt like ….I'd tell them 'bout my dreams and they would just shoot 'em down.  I asked, “Can I come watch the child open presents Christmas morning?”  I was told… “Christmas morning was only for family.”  Lord they seemed to love to make me cry.  But…

With a broken wing
She carries her dreams
Man you oughta see her fly

So, I flew away from them all… I could not bear anymore heartache… so I flew away.  If you don’t have a reason to stay, you must have a reason to leave. The void left in my heart by not being a part of the lives of my children and grandchildren would take some huge larger-than-life-itself kind of goals to survive… so I got a van… and set out to kayak America.  In the process, I regained my sanity (I think?), regained my health, and began finding my true self.  I was learning what it really meant to fly and set my spirit free.

I found a new family… vandwellers, who do support my dreams and even cherish them. They even call me an Inspiration.  My vanily (van-family) gives me all the love and support I always thought my bio-family should give.  Many of us out on the road feel that way, estranged. I am NOT alone.

I reached one dream to kayak America, all 50 states, on my 70th birthday… Hawaii.  It was a grand day but only one of my sons celebrated that day with me.  Now at 75, I am recovering from a total reverse shoulder replacement (a real broken wing?) and I am seeking a new dream, yet to be defined. 

In spite of the heartaches of the past, I have somehow… become a star!!!

First, I was only one of many people interviewed for Jessica Bruder’s book, NomadLand (https://www.amazon.com/Nomadland-Surviving-America-Twenty-First-Century/dp/039324931X/ref=tmm_hrd_swatch_0?_encoding=UTF8&qid=&sr=).

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I took that photo of Jess on top of her van, the year she interviewed me for her book.

Second, then magically, a major movie role fell in my lap, in the fictionalized movie version of Jessica’s book, to be released in probably 2020, NomadLand, the Movie.  The first news releases refer to me as a “star.” I thought it was just going to be a bit part as I never had any aspirations to become an actor. I guess I have finally learned to fly. This is requiring a major re-evaluation of my self-image.  Major.

The film follows McDormand’s Oscar-winning role in Searchlight’s “Three Billboards Outside Ebbing, Missouri.” David Strathairn, Linda May, and Charlene Swankie also star.

Imagine that, my friend, Linda May and I, are sharing top billing with greats like Frances McDormand and David Strathairn???   What the heck?  Will wonders never cease?

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Frances McDormand on set in Quartzsite, AZ – January 2019.

Never give up. When one door shuts, maybe another will open. 
If a door opens, go through it and set your spirit free.

Press Release Feb. 2019:  https://variety.com/2019/film/news/frances-mcdormand-nomadland-fox-searchlight-1203137650/

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Songwriters: James House / Phil Barnhart / Sam Hogin

A Broken Wing lyrics © Sony/ATV Music Publishing LLC

Monday, December 24, 2018

Quartzsite Gatherings, Winter 2018-19

Just a quick overview of the major vandweller gatherings this winter.  What, where, when and how.  Not all inclusive by any means, just links to where you can find more information.  (bits and pieces borrowed from Bob and Suanne.)

Women’s Rubber Tramp Rendezvous (WRTR):  Jan 4-8, 2019 

What: WRTR is part of Bob Well's CheapRVLiving organization.  An extension of the WRTR, this Facebook group of women collectively share wisdom, skills and practical knowledge about the nomadic lifestyle. It is a safe and inclusive space for women of all backgrounds and circumstances to participate in mentoring, networking, sharing information and developing skills. The goal of the group is to create a virtual classroom and networking avenue in which all are encouraged to be both teacher and student, mentor and mentee. This group is open to women who have attended a Women's RTR, or plan to attend in the future -- http://www.cheaprvliving.com/womensrtr/

Where:  Bouse AZ
https://www.facebook.com/photo.php?fbid=10217858649037847&set=gm.303689560259475&type=3&theater

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Description of each area:

1) Limited Mobility: If you are handicapped, disabled, or have a limited mobility, go here. If a man is a woman-participant's caregiver, then camp here. https://www.facebook.com/groups/womensrtr/permalink/295188741109557/

2) Allies: Where women who share their rig with a male will hang out and camp. https://www.facebook.com/groups/womensrtr/permalink/295326797762418/

Camps 3-13 are intended to be for women only.

3) Smoke- and Fragrance-Free: For women who are chemically sensitive. https://www.facebook.com/groups/womensrtr/permalink/295992521029179/

4) Healthy Living Activities: For the woman making healthy lifestyle choices, regardless of were she is in her journey. https://www.facebook.com/groups/womensrtr/permalink/296507987644299/

5) Art: For any type of artistic activities, except audio art. https://www.facebook.com/groups/womensrtr/permalink/296919827603115/

6) Rainbow: For LGBTQ and friends, a supportive place. https://www.facebook.com/groups/womensrtr/permalink/297301050898326/

7) Tenders: For women who sleep in their tents, especially geared for newbies to support one another. https://www.facebook.com/groups/womensrtr/permalink/297669084194856/

8) Quiet: The most popular camp selection in the poll. Women may camp at more of a distance from one another. https://www.facebook.com/groups/womensrtr/permalink/298109444150820/

9) Pet Owners: Join this camp for camaraderie with other animal lovers. https://www.facebook.com/groups/womensrtr/permalink/298524470775984/

10) Little Noise: For shorter-duration quieter sounds, less than an hour, less than 60db, including music a very quiet generators. https://www.facebook.com/groups/womensrtr/permalink/298893624072402/

11) Generators: For women who want to run their loud (more than 60db) or long-running (more than 1 hour) generators or engines. https://www.facebook.com/groups/womensrtr/permalink/299524434009321/

12) Music: This camp will be for folks who play and listen to music for longer lengths of time. https://www.facebook.com/groups/womensrtr/permalink/299742170654214/

13) Nature: For women who enjoy the company of others who also love exploring and learning about nature. https://www.facebook.com/groups/womensrtr/permalink/300060407289057/

When:  January 4-8, 2019

How:  For details go to Facebook WRTR – currently 1,498 members.
https://www.facebook.com/groups/womensrtr/?ref=bookmarks

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Rubber Tramp Rendezvous (RTR):  Jan 9-20, 2019
https://www.cheaprvliving.com/rtr/  (almost anything you need to learn about this lifestyle can be found on his site.)

What:  Bob Wells started the Rubber Tramp Rendezvous (commonly called the RTR) in January 2010. There were 45 of us that first year and we all had a great time. It was so great that we’ve been holding it annually ever since and it has grown larger every year. 

There will be many very experienced vandwellers at the RTR and an even larger number of newcomers. That creates a perfect opportunity for learning, so we put on seminars most days covering basic subjects of interest to vandwellers.

Schedule is a work in progress… not finalized.

RTR_schedule-2019

Where:  Quartzsite, AZ

33.649045, -114.145593

Video on location:  Bob’s Video:  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=osAVB9svWl0

RVTV Video (with internet upload and download speeds:    https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=eaK0Gm5Q4Wc&t=6s

When:  Jan 9-20, 2019

How:  Getting a Special Use Permit makes that person responsible for what goes during the event–at the RTR, that someone is Bob Wells! If you do something wrong, first BLM will talk to you, but then they will come talk to Bob and issue him a warning. If he can’t control the group, BLM won’t allow us to gather! IT IS BOB’s CAMP, AND HE DOES  EXPECT YOU FOLLOW THE RULES. If you insist on breaking the rules, the Ranger will be glad to enforce BLM rules.

Main  CheapRVLiving.com web site:  https://www.cheaprvliving.com/  (tons of resources and how to do info.)

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Tiny Care Living Resources:

Suanne Carlson’s Prius:  https://suanneonline.blogspot.com/p/why-prius-rv.html

David Swanson:  Luxury Living in a Prius:  https://priusdwelling.wordpress.com/

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Swankie Wheels Blog:  http://swankiewheels.blogspot.com/

Swankie Wheels Facebook Page:  https://www.facebook.com/swankiewhls/

Saturday, September 22, 2018

Summary of Reverse Total Shoulder Replacement (in progress)

This is a post in progress...

Not easy just yet to type a lot on the computer but I am improving by leaps and bounds.  I wanted to at least share that... but want to write a more detailed post as I get better and better day by day.  The absence of pain has had a huge impact on me and I want to share that fully.



More to come.

Thank you all for your continued support.  I could not have made it without you all.

Sunday, July 29, 2018

Shoulder Surgery is on for 8/21/18

Finally, I have a date for surgery.  The surgeon can not tell me if I will have a regular Total Shoulder Replacement or a Reverse Shoulder Replacement, said he would not know until he gets into my shoulder but he will be prepared for either.  Said the recovery time was about the same for both.

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Today, I found a power recliner for only $70, but I do not have the $70 to buy it.  It is in good shape.  I know I will be more comfortable in a recliner than flat in my bed.  My van bed it rather hard to get up out of.  I am seeking funds to buy the chair… immediately.  I only have $100 left and that has to buy food and gas between now and Aug. 15 payday.  Surgery is 8/21.

See donation button to the right of this page.  PayPal to charlene.swankie@gmail.com… make sure to tag it as “Send $ to Friends” gift, or PayPal will keep a chunk of it.

To complicate my life, the mail forwarding service I have used for ten years (MyDakotaAddress) has just unexpectedly shut down and I have to find a new address… anyone in SD who will let me use an address temporarily until I can get new service somewhere else.  My Medicare card was in transit, my auto tabs are due… I need to submit a new address to those two places.  No mail will be coming to your address, it is just to have a real physical address on file.  With $100 left, I have no way to sign up for a new service before my surgery.

HELP.

Thank you for any consideration.  I promise to pay it forward.

Tuesday, May 29, 2018

Back To The Wilderness - Van Repairs Made

READERS TAKE WARNING… this is a BOOK, not a blog post.

I have finally departed my friend’s place in southeast Arizona where I have spent the last three months making repairs and alterations to my rig, in anticipation of having shoulder surgery and maybe being unable to continue life as I have known for the past ten years.
There were a number of changes that were needed.


Very little room to work, to pry to old one loose, clean off the metal, and replace with the new one, less than 5”.
1) Most important of all, while in Washington state in September, my roof vent began leaking badly. You can get major mold and mildew problems inside a van if you allow such a thing.   I would at the least have to recaulk it… a major project with the cargo rack on top of the van…
and only five inches of space to work in between roof and cargo rack.  But it was raining too hard for me to tackle the problem there, and no inside shelter/garage to work in, so I put plastic over it and headed south to dry country, abandoning the idea of having shoulder surgery in Washington state.
As I drove, thinking about how much work that was going to be, I realized it made no sense to do all that and re-install a nine-year old fan, so I decided to find the money somehow to buy a new fan.  It came while I was camped in Ehrenberg, AZ and I went on to join the GalVanNation group at the RTR where I tackled the problem, and solved it.  Very challenging and I twisted and turned this old body in ways I did not know it would go… and challenged my bum shoulder in ways it did not appreciate.
Only way to fit suitcase on top was to have it overlap the vent fan hole.  Vent lid only opens 1/2 way with panel down, but all the way when panel is tilted up.  It works. Also, wind can not blow the vent cover off.
2)  My suitcase solar panel weighed 45 pounds and was big and bulky… and getting more and more difficult to lift in and out of the van or trailer and set up and move around.  Since I decided I could no longer lift the kayak on and off the top of the van, I decided to permanently mount the suitcase up there in the kayak parking space.  I consulted with Solar Bill’s first to make sure there was nothing technically wrong with that concept.  Then the challenge was, how to get it up there without help.  Luckily a friend came by to assist with that… and I secured it in place, however, not nearly secure enough, and wind came along and blew it off and it went crashing to the ground (in the middle of the night).  I don’t know why, but it did not break.  I re-mounted it… this time alone… and using bolts, washers and nuts instead of screws.  I must have gone up and down that ladder hundreds of times.

Another friend helped me figure out a way to better secure the legs when it was in a tilted-up position.  This has been a real challenge indeed, but I think it is good-to-go now.  Nice having 290 watts of solar up there instead of only 130 watts.

I had installed a plug on the outside of the passenger door where the suitcase plugged in when it sitting on the ground.  Now with the panel on the roof, I temporarily ran the wires down over the roof and plugged them in the same way, but later drilled a new hole in the roof, right above my battery bank and re-ran and reconnected the wires.

So that gave me 290 watts of solar to charge 345 ah of battery… when I mentioned that to a friend, he said he had a 60 watt panel I could have.  I ordered a controller for it, and installed it on the remaining space available on the roof, bringing my system to 350 watts of solar for 345 ah of battery bank.  Pretty good ratio, but I think I have done some damage to my batteries by trying to keep them charged using only 130 watt panel plus what they get off the alternator while I am driving. 

Sometimes they get pretty low overnight just keeping the refridge and freezer working.  I need to find the 110 cords for those appliances and connect to shore power whenever I can.

I may be looking at having to buy new batteries before long but will first check with Solar Bill in Quartzsite to see what the warranty covers.  During surgery and recovery, I won’t be using them much and maybe they can get charged back up???  But, me thinks, the damage could be irreversible.   Maximum charge reading I am getting on my Controller during full sun is 14.02… and I think it should go higher than that (like 14.4) in full sun mid day???  Last night (5/28) it dropped to 11.7 by bedtime.  I started the engine a couple times to charge it back up a bit, but worrying kept me from sleeping very well.  I reset the range on both refridge and freezer so they were not trying to stay as cold.  This is a problem I will have to address soon.

3) Biggest physical issue I had to solve, however, was how to keep my kayak accessible and manageable during recovery and not be frustrated (I.e. loose my mind) by being unable to kayak at all.  Full recovery for the surgery I am probably having could be a year.  A year without kayaking… hard to imagine.  So I came up with this idea of rebuilding the inside of my trailer so that I could have a chute on the floor of the trailer that the kayak would just slide into right off it’s cart, with no lifting other than an inch or two which I could do with my good arm alone. 

Once the concept was worked out in my mind, I needed a place to unload most of the contents and get to work.  I am the luckiest woman in the world to have a friend like Linda May.  I had barely arrived at her place to ask if it might be possible to tackle that there, when she just straight out offered… as if she were reading my mind.  It was a long and difficult process, of unloading, sorting, downsizing, deconstructing, constructing, and then somehow making it all fit again, but I did it.
It was in real bad shape.
Other projects including resealing the roof rack with high quality Roof Coating, resealing the trailer roof with what was left,  installing the old vent fan in the trailer, and fixing peeling paint on the van so it didn’t look trashy.  (still a work in progress as wet sanding is needed and then a good clear coat)  But it looks pretty good right now. 

 




Masking a Chevy van with blue painters tape does not always work… as it will peal more of the crappy paint off when you remove it.  Have had that happen in a couple spots… and need to fix them, again.  Still have more work to do which I hope to complete prior to surgery.

There were many more smaller projects I took care of during that down time, mending clothes and getting a tooth pulled, donating my bike and giving my bike rack away. No point in having an old bike hanging out in the weather for a long long time, when I might not even be able to lift it on and off the rack again anyway, and also the bike rack itself is very heavy.  Time to let go.  One day, in the future, I may have to upgrade to an e-bike, and/or folding bike that can be stored inside the trailer.

But finally all the major projects were done, Southeast Arizona was getting really really hot and I was ready to hit the road again, back to the wilderness.

May 18, I headed into the Chiricahua Mountains, to explore a totally new-to-me area.   Saw a coyote along the road but I was not fast enough to get a photo.  Saw many Century Agave Plants, maybe dozens or hundreds.  Also this plant???  Feels good to get away finally and just be thinking of nature.


Stopped at Leslie Canyon… walked a short distance but not the full 2 miles, as my van and trailer were parked on the road.  I would like to hike it one day.












Continuing on the way, I also saw lots of deer and wild turkey.
 


I drove to the end of 74E and found Rucker Forest Camp Campground.  I took the last spot at end of the road and was the only person in camp.  Perfect. The air was good, it smelled of pine.  I was enjoying hearing wind blow through the tree tops instead of just blowing against my van with nothing at all to buffer it. LOL I had no internet signal.



Wait, here comes Grandma and Grandpa with a small one in tow.  They took the two spots next to me, reserving one for people to come later.  Who knew setting up a small folding travel trailer would take so much banging or that one itty bitty little boy could holler so loud for so long?  Well, at least no one can have fires. 


By morning there were two more cars there.  Being a Friday night when I arrived, I anticipated that might be the case, so I only paid for one night.  So, I dropped the trailer there and went exploring, until 2pm checkout.  There was suppose to be a lake nearby with dispersed camping… and I went it search of it.  I took FS 628… which is “NOT maintained for passenger cars” but found I could not get through with the van and certainly not towing the trailer.  I think the lake was up that way.



At this point, I decided against going farther.  I walked a bit farther and turned back.
Later I found this information about the “lake.” 
This camp is located at the end of a Forest road that wanders up Rucker Canyon into the Chiricahua high country. Campsites are situated on both sides of the road in a stand of big trees that include ponderosa pine, Apache pine and Arizona cypress. This is bear country, so you’ll want to take advantage of the bear proof food boxes for storing your cooler and any other odorous items. On the way to Rucker Forest Camp, you’ll pass old Rucker Lake bed, which silted in after the Rattlesnake Fire in 1994. Rucker Creek still runs nearby. Closer to the campground, a number of Forest trails offer opportunities to explore the Chiricahua Wilderness high on the upper slopes.
So I turned around, parked and had breakfast.  At least I was getting some peace and quite which is what I was seeking.  Then I decided to write awhile.  I still had to tackle a very bad stretch of road to get out of there.  Next I went on to scout out a couple more roads… FS 4243 and 4244, 4245… these too looked problematic. 

I found a Fire Station, not on the map, near those roads.  That lake I was looking for was also not on the map, but I think was up at the end of FS 628.  I think there are places the F.S. no longer wants people to go.  It is frustrating.  I spotted some small yellow finches and heard woodpeckers nearby.

 Returning to my campsite, I found no other campers in the campground before Rucker, or in Rucker itself, save the folks next to me????  WTF???  They could have stayed farther way from me.  I hooked up the trailer and headed out to one of the boondocking spots I had just found.  It was a good spot and I found these strange fungi.




But, I had this creepy feeling all night long… and thought I heard a vehicle pull up and doors close.  Saw no one.  Middle of night I heard two knocks on my van but no one was there.  That happens each time I am parked somewhere that doesn’t feel right.  I woke early and just decided to head out. Vandweller rule #1… if it feels creepy, leave.  Drove to Sunnyzona… and parked there awhile at a restaurant… and wrote and caught up on internet and checked my bank balances, until finally the urge to head north and get to CO before I ran out of gas money overpowered me.  I figured I might just have enough $ to get me there.  At least I would be closer to surgeons for appointments and such and it was bound to be cooler.

I was being plagued by bug bites of unknown origin.  I got several night before leaving Linda’s.  I got a new one the next night. I believe I am going to have to tear my whole bed out and do a good cleaning and vacuuming. I have looked and looked, shook things out, etc. I can’t find anything.  This, in itself, is a lot of work for this old shoulder.  OK, as of 5/28, I have washed all my bedding, emptied the left wheel well storage box and vacuumed it as best I could, swept out the whole bed area, swept and vacuumed under the drivers seat as it seemed the last bite happened after I drove last time.  I killed one bug, now identified as a Kissing Bug  http://kissingbug.tamu.edu/found-a-bug/.  I have had no other bites since.  That is a bad bad bug.

I wrote the surgeon in Colorado Springs and requested an appointment as soon as possible.  The letter was received in their office on 5/25. I mailed all my shoulder medical history.  It might take a couple months to get an appointment but at least I am closer and cooler. I will follow-up with a phone call to surgeon’s office after Memorial Day.

Southeast Arizona is just too hot, although up in the Chiricahua Mountains it was only about 73f.  But can I find a place I want to stay awhile?  I had mail come after I left, and I need to get a dental spacer made for the tooth I had pulled, it is healing but needs more healing time.  I was tempted to head north anyway, have the spacer made in CO and have someone get my mail and forward it on to me.  I was ready to go… don’t want to go south again when I need to go north????

What to do?  Explore? Think?  Sleep?  Kill bugs?????  Well, it was too dammed hot in southeast Arizona to do any of that, so north won out.



First four bites I found, one on check bone… two on eye lid and one above eye brow.  Later that day I found three more, one on that shoulder (imagine sleeping with your head leaning on that shoulder… areas are very close to each other) and one on that collar bone, and one on that elbow.

Now I have no idea how to get my birthday present or where to go next.  I stopped to visit another shoulder patient who raises Icelandic ponies… and that has been cool.  She kindly allowed me to camp on her ranch until after Memorial Day.  Check out her website: Lough Arrow Icelandics -  http://www.coloradoicelandics.com/.   Hug a pony.  LOL












I have begun reading Desert Solitaire by Edward Abbey… boy can I relate to this book.  I am not a reader… Abbey’s books are some of the few I bother trying to read.  I tried to sit out at picnic table and read last night but bugs drove me back to the safety of my van.  I don’t even know if they wanted to bite me, but I wasn’t waiting to find out.  Guess all the bites I got had me feeling paranoid.

But, moral to the story is, don’t ever let them tell you old ladies can’t do stuff. I turned 74 this week.  LOL

Hope to give a review of all of 2017 in my next post.  Sorry for the delay, but I been kind of busy and challenged to the max.  BUT, not bored, no, not bored.

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Anywhere, USA, Full-Time USA traveler, United States
In 2006, I was shopping for a wheelchair. By 2007, I had new knees, better health and by 2008 a kayak. In Aug 2013, I kayaked my 49th state, Alaska, at the Holgate Glacier and in May 2014, I kayaked Hawaii, my 50th state, to celebrate my 70th Birthday and the finale to the wonderful adventure of Kayaking America. Next up... Re-kayaking southwestern states.

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