Who is that self? No longer will I be the person who changes my schedule and goals and plans to accommodate others. My life is very full, I have a busy schedule of things to do and places to go. I am sure along that path I will meet others who will dove-tail into my life without me having to compromise what I want and need. I am through going the extra mile to fit into other people’s schedules. Done, all done. Yesterday, brought that in to clear focus for me. Do I sound like an old curmudgeon? Well, just maybe I am… and if so, I am o.k. with that.
Where’s what happened yesterday. I reported to the Rock Club to work a morning shift as a rock sawyer. It’s hard and grimy work, and I just love it. There has always been great satisfaction for me in hard work. Sometimes my back hurts. I get very dirty, a problem when you live in the desert with no hot running water for a shower. But I love it. And yesterday I got a real surprise while sawing one rock… when this pattern revealed itself… and I suddenly knew why I volunteered for this grimy work. I immediately informed my supervisor that I had to buy that slab… and paid the $3 for it. I love this rock.
Where do we draw the line?
I am drawing the line this year – that is my New Year’s Resolution. Darn, if I stopped and went out of my way to meet everyone coming to Quartzsite who wanted to meet me, I’d never have a minute to myself. It’s just no longer a sacrifice I am willing to make. From now on, when I am working at the Rock Club, people can come meet me there. If they want to join in on other activities I am participating in, they are free to do so… and I’ll make my Google calendar available to them. I’m done. The rest of my life is mine, on my timetable, I’m no longer going the extra mile for anyone else. I’m 70 and I’ve paid my dues. I’ve got a hell of a lot of stuff yet to get done in this lifetime. Others will now have to go the extra mile if they want to meet or spend time with me.
OK, so I’m old and I’m a grouch. So be it. Don’t expect more from me then you are willing to give to me. I just ain’t got it left to give. I’m done. Happy Trails.
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